listen...

“Men become old, but they never become good” - Oscar Wilde

I hate dropping Billie off at that house, I don't quite hate picking her up so much but I'm far from liking it. Her new living arrangements were supposed to result in me seeing her more, but somehow I'm actually seeing her less, one or maybe twice a week.
I miss her.

I get awfully lonely.

My root canal was successfully completed. My dentist really is rather good, no pain at all. I don't mind going to the dentist, it's even quite cheap now. The only problem is the boredom of just lying there like a fool, trying to find something interesting in the the ceiling for an hour.

I finally picked up my pension pack today. All my colleagues received theirs last summer, mine was mysteriously delayed. I can retire at 55 or wait until I'm 60 for a slightly bigger amount. I won't be rich, but it should cover most of my mortgage and allow my eat and heat. What a prospect! another 15 years of this to look forward to, and then more of the same,but on a reduced budget, woo hoo!

bring it back soon, please...

“I'd marry again if I found a man who had fifteen million dollars, would sign over half to me, and guarantee that he'd be dead within a year.” - Bette Davis

“It is better to be looked over than overlooked.”- Mae West

I've been to the dentist today.
Exciting stuff eh?
A man of my advanced years with toothache! I ask you. Anyway I need another root canal! two in a year! Not decay mind you, an old filling failing. Filling failing!
Actually, I went to the dentist yesterday too, same one, but accompanying Billie. She hasn't a single filling, but last year a wayward door broke off the bottom of on of her incisors. The temporary (until she's 18! and coincidentally liable to pay!!) tooth keeps falling off, and she's pretty much there every few weeks getting it glued back on!

I've been troubled with almost daily deja vu lately. I don't hold that they are anything other than organic wiring problems, and that's what worries me, more evidence of decrepitude! Whatever the cause they still give me the willies, and willies are something I do not want any of.

I'm still enjoying my new car, but I just cannot seem to get the hang of getting into and out of my little yard in any manner approaching speedy. I thought practise would help, and it has a teensy bit. But at least I haven't dented it (yet) 
I even got it washed today! My old car was washed once in 7 years, predictably, just before Barbara's visit of so long ago.
The merest hint of snow however, and it's staying yardbound (the car that is). There's only a couple of inches between either side of the car and brick, and I'm not risking any lateral slippage!
My little old panda merrily slipped here there and everywhere, but was so small it didn't really matter. Thank goodness for this mildest of winters (cue frost, cue hail, cue blizzards!).

I signed onto Amazon.com (as opposed to .co.uk) earlier today to report a missing parcel and discovered my long long forgotten wish list.
Items dating back as far as 1999!! (when we still had a moon!) .
Interestingly (at least to me) almost all of them I subsequently bought on US holidays back when I did such things.
The past eh? seems that's where I spend most of my time these days...

“I used to be Snow White, but I drifted.” - Mae West

 

 

“Conversation about the weather is the last refuge of the unimaginative.”

Will this damned wind ever stop? and which part of my house will fall off first?

Moving on.
I still haven't seen Billie since Christmas Day! What a stretch, eh?
I'm picking her up from school tomorrow, in 'useful' Dad mode, of course I'd rather be in 'Dad that I'd like to just see, whilst actually still on holiday' mode, but you have to take what you can get eh?

I was a bit upset to see that the 'Jaws' ride at Universal Studios in Orlando closed down. I've many a fond memory of that ride and its environs, I'm glad that Billie and I got to go on it one last time in April of last year.

I'm feeling, well, 'stressed' may be the best way to put it. Work is a slog, both physically and mentally, and everything else seems well not quite pointless (actually , yes pointless), but simply an effort. I can't seem to concentrate or focus on anything, and I've been troubled by a new selection of headaches and bodily aches and pains (which I'm sure are all psychological in origin, except the return of the frozen shoulder, watching me attempt to put on an apron at work must be hilarious).
I've yet to return to full blown insomnia, but my sleep is restless and plagued by nightmares.
My own body seems to be on a sabotage mission, finally teaming up with what I laughingly call my 'mind' I suspect.
The good thing is this unease and listlessness is keeping me away from shopping, thereby saving me calories and money! silver lining eh?

I wanted to say something upbeat and optimistic to end.
Struggling...


End of line...

mine came without the shag.... shame...

“Things may come to those who wait...but only the things left by those who hustle.”  - Abraham Lincoln