“Just think of how stupid the average person is, and then realize half of them are even stupider!” - George Carlin

Terrible film, didn't bother with the wine...

"Nothing helps a bad mood like spreading it around."

Strange how things can suddenly turn about, and by things I mean of course my ever changing mood. Earlier I actually felt kind of upbeat. I've got a weeks holiday ahead and the sun was shining, at least intermittently. Then an evening with a petulant teenager, followed by my Brother telling me he can't make the one social engagement I had planned this year (through no fault of his own, I must point out), and I feel ,well, deflated and pointless.
I know, I know, I'm pathetic, but this is kind of low level cathartic outpouring blog remember?

I'm in a right huff, make no mistake...

Ho hum, I'm off to open some wine, and watch a loud action movie, so I'll probably be back later for some mildly intoxicated fun! Wahey!

 "That’s the difference between me and the rest of the world! Happiness isn’t good enough for me! I demand euphoria!" - from "Calvin and Hobbes"

"You do not like them. So you say. Try them! Try them! and you may!"

"We have to go back..."

No, that last post didn't need any pictures or quotes, did it? The most honest post I've made in quite a while, and all done completely sober, unlike this one...

Big, big sigh...

"I don't have a microwave oven, but I do have a clock that occasionally cooks stuff." - Mitch Hedberg 

Regrets, I've had a few...

Here's something new, a post from my phone.
Anyway,
I'm feeling esecially foolish at the moment.
I moan and I winge about nothing in particular, feeling so very very sorry for myself. But some people actually have real problems.

Entirely by accident (honestly) I stumbled across Barbara's twitter account. It seems her Mam is  very unwell, and has been for quite some time.
Let me explain a little, I never, ever ever go googling Barbara (heaven knows I've wanted to) , partly down to an "ignorance is bliss" (by which I practically live my life) policy, (see also ostrich syndrome)  plus a bit of respecting her privacy (for if she wanted me to know these things, I'd know them for sure). But quite by chance I came across her in a twitter list of "following".
Whenever (admittedly now all too rarely)  I stumble across her (usually at last.fm) I experience a sensation that is a strange mixture of excitement, dizziness, apprehension, and a little dread (see earlier policy!) , it's recent enough for me to recall quite clearly, it's the most alive I've felt in a while, to be sure.
I know it's unlikely, but if you, that is Barbara Hultberg, ever read this, I wish you and your Mam , and your family all the positivity I'm capable of. I know she's in safe and loving hands.

(Spelling and all that other stuff when I get back to my computer)

And...

Happy Canada Day ! 

"Don't worry, I've never heard of me either." - Jim Gaffigan

A lovely day, warm sunshine, the day after payday, yet I feel utterly miserable. I went for a walk around the town centre this afternoon, killing time until I picked Billie up from school (and dropped her at home literally five minutes later, take what you can get eh?). 

I bought some most excellent second hand CD's, my ipods shuffle function was making some wonderful musical choices, but looking around at all the happy faces, I suddenly felt completely and utterly alone.

Everyone was going somewhere, to do something, and most alarmingly, with someone. 

Boy, do I feel lonely.

It used to be that the role of "parent" filled that void, but now, with a 15 year old daughter,  that role is almost honorary (I imagine a slight return of demand in a few years - here's hoping). I really have no (honestly) social contact outside of working hours. Most of the time that's okay, but now and again, well I've explained above what I feel.

What a misery guts!

TV highlights of the week, the slightly baffling return of "True Blood", and a marvellous surprise in Johnny Depps' "Rango", and finally, the "hope it doesn't get cancelled, just as I'm getting into it" show of the moment, "Falling Skies".

Note to self - buy less CD's! 

"Isn't it strange -- when you're single, all you see is couples, and when you're part of a couple, all you see are hookers."  - Jim Gaffigan