A lovely day, warm sunshine, the day after payday, yet I feel utterly miserable. I went for a walk around the town centre this afternoon, killing time until I picked Billie up from school (and dropped her at home literally five minutes later, take what you can get eh?).
I bought some most excellent second hand CD's, my ipods shuffle function was making some wonderful musical choices, but looking around at all the happy faces, I suddenly felt completely and utterly alone.
Everyone was going somewhere, to do something, and most alarmingly, with someone.
Boy, do I feel lonely.
It used to be that the role of "parent" filled that void, but now, with a 15 year old daughter, that role is almost honorary (I imagine a slight return of demand in a few years - here's hoping). I really have no (honestly) social contact outside of working hours. Most of the time that's okay, but now and again, well I've explained above what I feel.
What a misery guts!
TV highlights of the week, the slightly baffling return of "True Blood", and a marvellous surprise in Johnny Depps' "Rango", and finally, the "hope it doesn't get cancelled, just as I'm getting into it" show of the moment, "Falling Skies".
Note to self - buy less CD's!
"Isn't it strange -- when you're single, all you see is couples, and when you're part of a couple, all you see are hookers." - Jim Gaffigan
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