"See I've already waited too long and all my hope is gone"

It had to happen, and of course it's entirely my own fault. Seeing it in "black and white" though, well even I was surprised at the volume of tears, coughing and spluttering it provoked.

Now I've calmed down enough to type.

Barbara has moved on from me. Oh I know it really happened months ago, but (30 minutes of thinking later) I never stopped loving her.
Nearly everyday since we last spoke I've sat looking at her name on my phone, but never dared to ring.
Maybe this is the metaphorical slap in the face I needed to move on.
I really hope you are happy Barbara (absolutely NO bitterness or sarcasm intended), heaven knows you deserve it. You're the best friend I've ever had.